i want to travel the world not a campus aka real talk

On Monday September 30, at 12:04 AM I posted a piece of writing that I thought included all of my fears.

But I was wrong.

I'm not that afraid of drowning.
Ferris wheels aren't that high.
I'm not afraid for the end of the semester anymore.
And bones aren't something scary, they're something wonderful.

I've realized what I'm afraid of most.

I'm afraid of the world.

And not in the oh-my-goodness-what-is-this-world-coming-to way.
But in the HOW-ON-EARTH-CAN-I-SEE-EVERYTHING-I-WANT-TO-SEE-IN-MY-LIFETIME???? way.

There are so many places that I want to see.

I want to see the sun set on the Taj Mahal.

I want to see the moon shine it's light on the sand through the roof of the Forgotten Temple of Lysistrata in Greece.

I want to see houses of all different colors in Portugal.

I want to spend the night under the stars staring in wonder at the Northern Lights in Norway.

I want to feel the strength of an elephant move under me as it takes me across a river in Thailand.

I want to go see the pyramids at Giza and think about all those mummies.

I want to cross every bridge in Amsterdam, while wearing wooden clogs.

I want to zipline through a rainforest in Antigua.

I want to eat gilato outside of the Trevi Fountain like Lizzie McGuire did.
I want to see what a beach in Poland looks like.

I even want to see Milwaukee.

MILWAUKEE.

Have you ever met a person who wants to go to Wisconsin just to see Milwaukee??

I honestly just want to see everything.
And meet everyone.
And I want to put a pin in the map everywhere I go.


But unfortunately the world doesn't work like that.
Life isn't a beach.

And you can't decide you want to go travel the world,

because apparently you need to spend too much money

and too much time taking classes that you don't even care about

ALL so that you can ease your mothers worried mind 

by having a degree even though just yesterday she said she thinks 

"real life experience is worth way more than a college degree."

(kthanksfornothingmom)

So instead of backpacking across Europe next fall, 
I'm going to be backpacking across Provo.

And instead of finding the quickest route from the Berlin Wall to the Swiss Alps,
I'll be trying to find the quickest route from the David O. Mckay Building to Helaman Hall.

Waiting until I can finally say

The world is my art school.

And I'm majoring in experience.